I have been overweight/chubby/fat/out-of-shape for a long time now. I’ve struggled a few times in my life with my weight but I need to finally win this fight.
I’ve actually begun to embrace the curves and rolls, the lumps and bulges. It’s who I am. I’m not going to wake up tomorrow and be a size 6 so I might as well deal with it. I’ve started to get bolder and braver with what I’m wearing. Hello horizontal stripes! Why yes, I will wear a thick belt around my waist that draws attention to my lack of slimness. I don’t care if my chubby arms are out or if my chubby-rubbing-together thighs are visible because of my short skirt.
However, it’s time. It’s time to get healthy again to feel fit and to feel good about myself. I’ve blogged before about working at a clothing company, it’s hard to be a chubby girl in that environment but I think most days I hold my own and I get compliments on my choice of outfits quite a bit. I want to be in shape. I want to feel strong. I want to not think twice about whether something looks good or whether I feel comfortable in it.
Starting tomorrow, I will be exercising at least 3 times a week for an hour. More importantly, I will be changing the way I eat. The Gay BF started a new diet (for lack of a better word) a month ago now. I poopooed it at first. Mostly because the thought of cutting out carbs for 2 weeks makes me want to pull my hair out but he’s lost a substantial amount of weight. So I’m giving it a try.
Saturday The Gay BF and I went to the market and to the grocery store so I have everything I need to last this week. Lots of veggies, low-fat dairy and some sugar-free treats to help with any desserts craving. I spent some time today preparing tomorrow’s lunch and snacks as well as chopping up veggies for the rest of the week.
I’m serious about making this change. About needing this part of my life to change.
I weighed myself today and took all my measurements – that wasn’t a lot of fun but I’m hoping over the course of the next few weeks and months, as things improve it won’t seem so painful. I am not ready to share any of the numbers with you now but maybe over time to show the progress I’ve made I will. For now, I will say my ultimate goal is to lose 50 pounds. I have quite a few smaller ones both weight and fitness related that I’m sure I’ll write about shortly.