What happens next…

After this weekend. After my letter to my rapist. After seeing his doppelgänger on my bus yesterday morning. After fighting with my Ex needlessly.

I’m just numb.

I have nothing left.

I don’t care.

I’m not feeling anything.

There are no tears.

No distress.

I just truly don’t give a fuck.

Today I couldn’t even go through the motions of going to work so I called in sick. I was hoping a day to cocoon would help. It hasn’t.

I give less of a fuck now than I did at 10 am.

I’m not suicidal. I wish I were at least then I’d have a feeling, some direction. Now I am directionless.

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3 thoughts on “What happens next…

  1. I see I’m not the only one concerned about you. I know you’ll pull through this. Be strong, my friend.

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